My anxiety flared today to pre-acceptance levels. It started this morning...I was just in the wrong state of thinking. I thought I haven't felt anxiety in a couple of days so this weird twinge in my chest MUST be something more serious than the nothing that was found by my doctors. Heart palpitations and ectopic heart beats started around lunch and would come and go. Around the time of the chancellor's farewell shin-dig and 400 plus people in our atrium I could barely breath and felt like my heart beat was all over the place.
Deep breaths, Audrey, it's just anxiety. (JUST anxiety???? I didn't ask for this....I JUST want it to go away!)
But anxiety over what? I don't feel stressed or nervous....
Pound, pound, pound.
Breath....
OMG....I must have anemia, adrenal tumors, heart failure or internal bleeding. I'm going to die. I'm done for.
Rational self: Feeling like some heartburn coming on, take previcid and drink some water....
Symptoms start to subside a smidge. Hmmm....
I get home and slip into comfy clothes and get toasty warm. Eat toast, yogurt and some chamomile tea and almost all symptoms return to normal.
Hmmm....
Guess I get to live another day. Whew. What a close call....
Silly anxiety and acid reflux.
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